Of Love and Life..

Now i know...

2010-08-03T16:49:00.003+08:00

Bloody hell... all my previous writings somehow just disappeared....
ANYWAYS... managed to put up the pictures... in no particular chronological order......

My Grumpy Nephew..

I'm getting married!!

Make-up Trial

Grumpy Nephew

Angry Nephew

Timid Nephew

Crazy Colleagues..

Gifts from the Man!

Han Wei's Farewell @ One Rochester

What we do when we're bored in class (Yes, i carried the cow over!!)

Chillour with classmates @ Brewerkz, Clarke Quay (We were there to pay the bill only)

Half-yr after the proposal and half-yr to our wedding: 17th June 2010

Recee: Helix

Recee: Flyer (and how to carry me... What a challenge!)

Recee: Hort Park (Freaking hot!)

Daddy's Day dinner @ Mosaic, Carlton Hotel

My bro who's a father now.. and myself...

My last game of the league! (Maybe my last league with Titans...)

NUS Titans 2010 (I love you all!!)

Titans - After beating Littos (First time in the last 3 years.. i think?)

25th July 2010 - Bren Bren's wedding (Bride's not here =P, left early as i was TERRIBLY SICK)

5th June 2010 - XQ's wedding!

That's a bout it.. my boring life in the past 2 months... Its all mobile uploads nowadays... hahaha

June...

2010-06-10T17:02:00.002+08:00

2 months have passed....
Enjoying what little break i have now..

Suddenly had a thought... how nice if only i can sing a duet with him! hahaaha
or just have him sing for me.. hehe =)

Its been yet another month

2010-04-09T12:04:00.002+08:00

Suddenly time flies... Things are looking better now...
At least they are talking to each other now, but some things has changed i guess.... and there's this wall that exists. Its really something that i have no control or say about.

On the other hand, went on a short trip with my colleagues. It was fun and interesting to see a new place...... Somehow i managed to rub in some ill feelings (which have been sorted out not)... managed to confide in another male colleague and he had the same sentiments about certain stuff as me as well.. He understood how i felt, whereas the others didn't, felt it was childish and trivial and made them unhappy...... But anyways, i have learnt from him what to do and what not to do, so peace!

Other than being troubled over THAT matter and holiday and coming back and being troubled over THEM, March just went by in a jiffy and all i know is that people have been telling me i look tired, pale, dry (??), moody, skinny (like real), busy... bla bla and i'm glad it has stopped for now.... haha

Had a long weekend after so long, but i had to fall sick of all days.. damn it.... n it was really sick sick, such that i kinda foiled my plans for the long weekend... i tried my best and still went to clean up the new place but my body gave in and i was on MC for a day, slept all i can to recuperate and luckily, i'm much better now... B4 i know, its April already... time to visit the shop again! =) cant wait for the fashion show and to go for fitting, beginning to feel excited as things slowly take shape! Cant wait for league to start too... its been delayed yet again and somehow its better for me coz it will be during the period of my study break.. of abt 2 mths? so yeah!!! i can go for trainings n for games! woohooo!!! =) Feel so slack so far...

Lastly, hmmmm.... just wish i have enough time and money to sneak in a trip like last yr.. but not quite possible, now i only yearn for a weekend escapade, i wonder when..... sigh.

Why?

2010-03-08T16:00:00.002+08:00

What happens when a woman's pillar of strength is being smashed into bits and pieces?
Seems like there is no more meaning in life for her isn't it?
Throughout the years, these mini bits were being mended back little by little like piecing together a jigsaw, but only to be destroyed every few years.
Having no power means you have to see other people's face everyday.
We guess that he needed an avenue to vent his anger on and chose an easy target who's unable to fend for herself.

He became a person i didn't know altogether and was like a stranger to me, whom i cannt treat like a stranger. The things coming out from his mouth were unbelievably crude and i know she's being wronged... big time. Declaring all her assets seems like her last resort to prove her innocence. But with an ego big as that, he would not admit it and it is going to take awhile before the episode dies down.

At this age, i'm sure it takes a toll on them to have to go through this coz even a third party like me is tired and distracted. It pains me to hear and see her cry and yet i was told to pretend that i do not know anything... all for the sake of me. Every woman wants someone to console her when she cries, whether she's being reasonable or not. To be wronged and being ignored even when tears were shed, i do not know why. To threaten a timid woman just seems so wrong. To say that the sight of her irritates him is just mean.

so WTF? wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf

Committment

2010-03-04T17:16:00.001+08:00

Day by day, we inch closer towards the day...
As we move on, we get into more details.. With each detail, we treaded on unknown territory..... Suddenly, its like a bare-all or something like drawing lines. Of course, it is necessary... Everyone says we need to be clear on certain things and its best to state clearly, and these people are speaking from experience..
BUT, somehow, the more detailed we go, the more i felt distant... It's as if i need to move out of my comfort zone to accommodate the decisions.. thats y they say, compromising is very impt... and i'm truly learning it now... Suddenly, the stress comes back on and at times, helplessness..
If you are too detailed, its not good.. to be not sufficiently detailed is also not good... it's hard to strike a balance...

And then there's the preparation... I really do not have an idea of what kinda things i like, i just feel simple is good.. And when i show some pics, i get such contrasting views that i had to take a step back to think whether i really ought to be putting in more effort... people around me have more ideas and comments than I do.. So yeah.. let me try to put in more thoughts..... on wats nice, wat i should go for and how to make it special...

xoxo

Countdown starts (10 more months)

2010-03-01T15:42:00.015+08:00

February is soooooo short!!! I only remember exams and many assignments, CNY and then birthday and GONE!

Finally got down to other things for 10 months down the road and its tiring, but exciting!
I've been kinda anti-social for the past month coz of the many presentations and reports that were due.. Sorry my dear friends!!! CNY came and went and there was kinda a big hoo ha coz of the announcement i made. It was interesting this year coz of 2 new baby additions, Zong Yi and Caylia.. Tong Tong has grown up to be such a bubbly girl and she's always smiling! Such a happy baby...

Vday came n went coz of CNY.. Bday was a nice cosy affair, just with family... Not really with friends.. hahaha, miss those surprise parties and gatherings... Anyways, am a year older yet again... everyone keeps telling me "Happy Birthday! Enjoy your last birthday as a singleton".. hahaha, sounds damn scary! =P

Yuan Xiao Jie

@ Home

At the stroke of Midnight!

Bday dinner! VERY Meaty!

VDay present from Milan...

Zong Yi on 27th Feb! =)

Staring intently at Gong Gong

"HUH?"

"Frowns"

Hungry Baby

Baby Caylia

Zong Yi on First day of CNY

Daddy's 63!!

2010-01-25T13:52:00.005+08:00

Normally, the start of every new year is full of hype.. coz Jan is daddy's Birthday, Feb is mine, March is my bro's... then there'll be a break b4 my mum's in september...
So, very quickly, My dad's birthday just passed! Very soon, it will be mine and i'll be a year older! sighhh...

Birthday Dinner at a Pioneer Seafood Restaurant

Me and my recently promoted brother..

My family! =)

Baby One Zong Yi Xavier

2010-01-22T16:51:00.009+08:00

Day 11: Yummy!

Day11: Hungry!!!

Day 11: Satiated

After all the anticipation, this little bundle of joy has joined my family... =)
New addition to my family... =)Cant wait for him to grow up a little bigger so i can see who he resembles more.. hahhaha
HE has made me more busy than ever, juggling school work, shuttling to my bro's place and trying to start back my floorball, which seems like its more than i can handle... maybe i really ought to retire.. =P

Day 7 - My bro calls this the La Bi Xiao Xing look...

Day 4 - Sleeping at home

Happy Grandma

Day 2.. My Bro's a FATHER! I upgraded to an Auntie.. *tears*...

Baby's hungry!

My obvious lack of experience in handling newborns!

Poooooof

2010-01-13T14:18:00.003+08:00

Half a month passed and 2010 is starting out really busy for myself...
School assignments' piling up!! There's a test tomorrow.
I'm filled up to the brim coz work's so busy....
It really is not easy if work is so busy and having to study, i'm wearing myself out!

There are many items on the checklist and we managed to settle a thing or 2... There's still the major headache of the biggest item that is bugging us. Sometimes, the depression/frustration gets to me and i really need to 'calm' down so that i don't snap. I guess i really need to feel the 'enthusiasm' rather than the 'helplessness' coz i really dunno how to HELP otherwise.

Everyday, we yearn for the CPF and bank account to grow faster. How fast can it grow?
I seriously think it is a give and take thing. You cant have the best of not just both, but EVERY world... It takes time to take everything. Something simple first b4 getting something ideal. How to change a person's mindset?

Stressed. period.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2010-01-01T21:21:00.002+08:00

Its the first of January 2010 already... and ending.
I have really been making full use of my 2 long xmas and new year weekends to work on my assignments and school work.. talk about a life. I hope i dont have to be doing this for my 2010 xmas n new year! Coz it will be a very very different scenario all together already..

Counted down with my folks on a lazy night at home. Am so happy coz i finally finished up a 20 pages report with 2 more projects to go.. argh! sucks, i hate management accounting!!!
Many of my pals are getting married in 2010... Have got XQ in June, Brenda in July, Yingyin in Oct, Jack, WeiCheng and i think Stephanie (my coursemates) in Dec..
I am really at the age whereby everyone's getting married.

Thinking back, we used to have celebrations on new year's eve and we will be noting down our last meal, last drink, last set of clothes worn, last venue for that particular year and also our first meal, first drink, first date for the next year. Now, i don't even really bother. hahaha

Suddenly, just suddenly, i wanna be teleported to Copenhagen... =

First one...

2009-12-31T10:37:00.003+08:00

She's the first one amongst my close friends.
Although we do not really keep in touch now (tough with working life and all, which just boils down to lack of initiation.. hahaha), we go a long way back as we all grew up together! =) Congrats Mr and Mrs Li Ji Wen

See their nicely done up Room and entire house looks so good! *envy*

Some shots at their house. Don't ask me what i was doing.. Totally unglam!

The 5 jie meis... My first time and many more to come!

He did it!

2009-12-22T09:35:00.010+08:00

My holiday has ended... all too quickly once again!!! Sighhhh.... it was a relaxing and super over-eating indulgence.. =)
It was a very pleasant surprise on the cruise and something totally unexpected happened... Thanks for everything once again!
Back just in time for xmas... alone. Luckily i have made plans for some Xmas party...
Things seem to be in fast forward mode since i got back.. within a week, so many things were happening and everything seems to be coming together all at once and i can see the stress...
Hope that things will slowly fall in place one by one....
Some pics to share..

Last day... THE day =)

Nice and dark..

Phuket

On the Tender Boat to Phuket

Lil pup to welcome us..

Formal Night

Port Klang

Day 1!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2009-12-01T10:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Hahaha last year i think i did the same thing and posted an entry.... its been a year now and things are different.. last year i was in an ulu place and it was sad coz he had to send me off right after the birthday dinner... this year is the other way.. i gotta send him off after dinner... hahahha ironic..

Anyways, i just realised as one gets older, you get numb with age... It's just made up of mere numbers that does not matter anymore.. =)
Nevertheless, i'm happy with the way things are now.. and its December again!!!!! The season of holidays and *gulps* 2010 is coming... Sighhhhhh

Finally....

2009-11-24T17:11:00.003+08:00

Something to look forward to in Mid Dec!! =) Otherwise, i'll be so grumpy... hahhaha, but it was a little over the budget... more than i had planned for... hopefully it will be fun =P
Been more slack this trimester already... have quite a few major projects and presentations but have yet to work on it... sigh, waitin for team members to make the move together... dun wanna always be the one taking the initiative.. hahaha... hopefully the things dun end up too last min.. i hate last min work!!

Went for a farewell for Ex boss... so sad =( my ex-bosses are all so fatherly and they really dote on me =P really sad that he has to move on.. and for the very first time in my life, i puked lor!!! my goodness... not a pretty sight at all and my bf had to witness it.. oops! Never mix and gulp down your drinks!!! Totally puked out my dinner.. haha

BEFORE

AFTER

Lay Barge - Kuroshio II

2009-11-12T09:35:00.004+08:00

Been pretty hectic since i returned to work after my exams ended and all... the day b4 was an interesting one for myself..... Visited a lay barge in NS Batam, one of the rare times that they are docked. Once again, amazed by the efficiency of the Japs.. It was hard work though, climbing up and down and trudging around in ill-fitting shoes! We all look pretty uniform huh? hahaha

Another company related event was Kervin's wedding @ Hotel Rendevous. Pretty nice and cosy place. Her hubby was really really really really funny and sporting. Videos of the bachelor night and his witty replies filled the place with laughter! =) and of coz, a very rare opportunity to see everyone all dolled up.. hah... this was only round 1, no pics for round 2 though... too bad! =(

On a side note, my bb has survived!! Came back alive and with a changed insight of certain pple, which was exactly what i had told him b4 he left andhad hoped for. Some pple may not be as nasty that they appear to be... Now, just waiting for holiday plans... which sadly, as of now is NONE.. =(

Renewed!!

2009-11-09T14:23:00.002+08:00

After all the stress and worry, hiding at home to study for his exams, he finally passed and has renewed his license. Sometimes i think he's just putting too much pressure on himself. Doing fine is not enough, has to be good! It's good, but can be taxing... Now there's just the last leg back from Amsterdam, hopefully the evil captain be less evil.. hah

Start of a new term, barely breathed... Starting to form groups again and ploughing through readings and discussing projects. I need to split myself into parts! =( Guess i badly need a holiday, feeling depressed and moody more. Even when i met up with my friend for lunch, i feel that i'm just spaced out, i don't know what i want anymore and i am just waiting for things to happen. There are so many things that i was doing which i feel i shouldn't be doing until i am given the direction. After awhile, you just get tired... Tired of second guessing what's gonna happen, when its gonna happen.

I suppose i'm just DARN tired... my mundane routine lifeless lifestyle.. Partly coz of work and school (which i need to socialize quite a bit), i'm becoming a stranger even to my friends. i talk to my friend in 'socializing language'.. its unbelievable.. i did that twice when i met up with woman the other day and i got so disgusted by myself!!! i'm losing ME!!!!!

Sigh.

Recess Course

2009-10-29T11:14:00.004+08:00

My first trimester finally came to an end. It was a long one, and it felt great once the exams were over. But a few days of rest only and its back to school. Didn't even make it for Winn's farewell coz i was really behind in preparing for my exams.. =( She's gonna go to Middle East for a year!!! Speaking of which i'm also having withdrawal symptom. Haven touched my stick for the longest time ever, since i picked up the sport in 2002. Is it a sign that it's the end?

Well, at least i managed to sneak in a quick morning out with my sec school mates.. its funny to see how certain habits do not change after 10 years and we were like back in sec school days!!

Here's a pic... Gotta get back to class now =

Byebye September..

2009-10-02T16:47:00.001+08:00

October! Last quarter of 2009!
September was pretty eventful actually... Well, not for myself though.. hahha, there was F1, Nana's Birthday and my mum's birthday and yeah, errrr presentations? hahahaa =P

Cant help but think back a year ago when all i wanted to do was come home to see my loved ones while i was stuck in Kuantan. Its been 8 months since i'm back. How fast... and i'm gonna have my exams in 2 weeks' time. I'm soooo dead! and believe it or not, i havent even had my exams, i'm getting emails on next trimester timetable, registration period, etc... yet another headache. My oh my...

This month is gonna like ZIP right by. Gonna head out for a biz trip to Kuantan and then gotta prepare for my exams and prepare for an intense jammed course for a module for a week! Watch how i die... =

Oh yeah, met up with my Sis in law for my mum's bdae, i can seee my nephew slowly growing bigger n bigger... cant wait to see him! =)

Long Weekend!

2009-09-18T15:49:00.006+08:00

Finally! The long-awaited longgggggggggggg weekend. Phew, time to take a break! Been filled up to the brim.. not that its any better with the weekend actually, gotta catch up on my school work. But at least its a break!
Between the last update and now, i learnt of 2 friends getting married. seems like a common topic amongst girls our age... faint! I haven't been having much of a life i realised and i miss FLOORBALL.. sigh, cant wait for the first trimester to be over to see whether i'll survive...
Other than that, the only other happening thing was the pyjamas party for our 30 year old ferrari... Except, i was the odd ball who's 'not cute at all' =P

090909

2009-09-09T09:20:00.002+08:00

I guess i have to put up a post today coz of the special date.. its 090909... Though its still in the midst of the seventh lunar month (think hungry ghost festival), many many many couples are still tying the knot today..
While i'm still on such a love topic, 2 of my seniors got proposed to like within 3 weeks of each other!! So happy for them =) Meaning, i better save up more money!!!

Just done with my term test and well, a little sad that i didn't manage to nail it flat... but i guess no choice since i wasn't careful enough! Finally halfway through my first trimester... hopefully i'll end it on a 'good' note..

Otherwise, things are pretty stale on my side, been working like crazee and tryin to study... busy weekend ahead.. briefing for my friend's wedding.. gonna be her sister, pyjamas party and errr meet insurance agent and property agent.. Wow, maxed out!

I need a B.R.E.A.K.

Asking for it.

2009-08-28T13:14:00.002+08:00

Filled to the brim.
Reaching my capacity.
Brain dead.

These are the common few phrases comin from me recently. I'm so tired. Period.
It's been only a month since my last holiday and i feel like i need another one RIGHT now... what with all those airline adverts in the papers. Totally killing me.

Guess i'm probably asking for it when i opted to go back to books. BUT, just so happen, when i'm swarmed by presentations and assignments, i've been 'entrusted' with a mega big project at work which totally sucked all my time. Been working late for 2 weeks already, desperately feel like i need a break. But its a race against time for this project and i cant stop for a break! =

Gotta endure for 1.5 years more. Good luck to myself. SIGH.

Things that tell you you're beginning to get too caught up with work:

1) When you're trying to write the word BED and keep on writing BENDS (my job deals with pipes and bends)

2) Constantly referring to the EXECUTIVE summary for school assignments as COST SUMMARY (aka my quotations n proposals)

3) By saying "oh i just had lotus notes rice" when what i meant was lotus LEAF rice.

HAHA.
On a happier note, one of the more recent photos (which i have yet to upload and send):

Another one please?

2009-08-04T09:37:00.002+08:00

I really wish to go on holiday... But now i honestly have no time to even THINK about going on holiday.. =( Damn those bloody muggers... Week 1, form a group and meet up for discussion. Week 2, meet for discussion. Week 3, submission and presentation.. How chop can it get?
STRESSED...

Anyways, that aside... Its really sweet hearing him say he wanna do it all over with me again =) I mean the trip was really a test of whether we can tolerate each other and of coz there were ups n downs, but it was all good... BUT, DAMN the economic crisis.. they keep cutting pay! =( not when we're tryin to save $$.. sigh..... i just hope it doesn't jeopardize plans...

Finally, one of my closest friends from sec school days is gonna go off the shelf this weekend. Am soooo happy for her! =)

ok, too stressed now, dunno what else to write... Wish me luck!

Back from Middle Earth..

2009-07-21T11:29:00.023+08:00

That was it?
One week ago i was snowboarding!!! =(
Sigh, all gone too fast.
All i can say is i had a BLAST!! Albeit a tad bit tired and battered...
It was freezing cold in NZ!!! The thing i hate most, sitting on cold toilet bowls... and SHOWERING! Gosh...
Quick Summary of the trip...

Day 1 - Collected Campervan and had a scenic drive along Arthur's pass. Very beautiful place! Attempted climbing up to Devil's Punchbowl but it was getting dark at 5pm and we had to head back. headed on to campsite at Lake Lanthe to call it a day. Cooked our own dinner and that was our 1st anni meal =P

Day 2 - Drove on to Franz Joseph Glacier. Wanted to do a glacier hike but it was all fully booked, so we splurged and went on a heli-hike instead ($380 per person!!!!) It was cool walkin on ice! =)
Headed to Wanaka.

Day 3 - Drove up to Cardrona to snowboard! Got like HUGE ugly bruises from the numerous falls and i was DEAD tired!! but it was fun! =) Headed to Nandos to treat ourselves to a gd dinner and then to Te Anau for the night.

Day 4 - Rode on to Milford Sound for scenic cruise. Something relaxing after 2 days of extreme activities. Went on to Queenstown Top 10 Campervan Park for some warmth...

Day 5 - Shotover river was frozen, so we cant do white water rafting. Too cloudy over the mountains, so we cant do paragliding. Had to settle for shotover jet instead. And we ended up shopping in queenstown and invested in ski wear (which were real lifesavers) =) Drove on to Mt Cook and it was -10 deg!!!

Day 6 - 7 hours hike at Mt Cook and it was actually a pretty frightening experience coz we got a little lost on our way back and had to take a long way out, which really took a toll on us. Honestly, i was way too tired and frustrated having to trudge through knee deep snow. Cant imagine how glad we were when we stepped foot on the paved roads again. A super sinful dinner of Fisherman basket and tonnes of fries, all of which i gulfed down. DAMN hungry.

Day 7 - Drove to Mt Hutt from Methven. Roads were icy, so we had to put on snow chains. Skiied all day and it was fun!! Was a tad bit sad when we left as it was our last night in NZ ..
Visited Christchurch town a little and bought some snacks before we checked into the last holiday park and cooked our lasy day meal. Sigh. Had to pack our luggages with a heavy heart..
Day 8 - Returned our campervan and voila! back in Singapore!

Burned a big hole in our pockets already! hahaha =) Now its time to settle down to prepare myself for some serious mugging and working... Some pics here... somehow the order is reversed....???

Day 8: Skiing at Mt Hutt

Day 7: Snowman at Mt Cook

Day 7 : Mt Cook - En Route to Hooker Valley

Day 7: Mt Cook's Breathtaking scenery!

Day 5: After Milford Sound

Day 5: The dangerous HOMER tunnel

Day5: Queenstown Top 10 Holiday Park

Day5: Clear blue skies at Milford Sound

Day 3: Snowboarding at Cardrona Peak in Wanaka

Day3: Somewhere along the way to Te Anau

Day2: Hiking at Franz Joseph Glacier

Day2: One of the ice caves. Really cool!

Day1: First home-cooked dinner (Happy 1st!! =))

Day1: Up to Devil's Punchbowl & Bridal Veil Walk

Day1: After the DANGEROUS and tiring hike... Time to cool down!

Day1: Its crazy walkin on slippery surface without proper trekking shoes!

Day1: Along Arthur's Pass

Day1: Checking into Campervan! =)

Day0: SQ297. NZ Here we come...

PS: Link to more photos!
http://www1.snapfish.com/share/p=985201248146670755/l=1979459015/g=6784718/otsc=SYE/otsi=SALB

Done.

2009-07-08T15:31:00.003+08:00

After about 2.5 months or so... we've come to the end of it all. Feeling the withdrawal symptoms already.. Been a great season this time round. I'm happy we came in 2nd... my first medal from the league i think? =) hahah i think we probably came in 2nd or 3rd before but i never got the medal also la... hahaha but i'm happy it ended well. Mixed feelings... Not sure if this will be my final league.. Gotta see how things go when my term starts like in 2 weeks' time..

Been a pretty alright week at work so far.. and there will be reno works from friday till the weekend. When i'm back, its gonna be a brand new cubicle for me already...
Have Em's farewell dinner, Titans' Chalet.. LY's bdae coming up... my kid's exams and practise sessions.. sigh... busy busy!

To end it off....

It feels sooooooooo good! =)

2009-06-29T15:10:00.009+08:00

Well, we finally did it! To beat the O.W.L.S... =)
Now we're left with one big hurdle this coming weekend. Hopefully it will all end well so that we can have a bam wham celebration... Many things are gonna happen in July.. And as things are slowly starting to fall in place, i'm starting to feel the stress of it all.
At least i do not have to worry at all or plan for the trip. THANKS! =)

I cant believe i actually took the plunge and went back to my books. Sigh, i hope i can survive it and do fine... Excited and stressed at the same time.

While some people are discussing home deco, wedding plans, furniture, houses... i'm discussing errrr studying, floorball, work, travelling.. Wish i can move on... Yet i dont wanna rush into things. I can only talk that much just in case others get stressed up. But its a good start. Parc Oasis is still darn expensive. Damn it. What's our plan? Seriously, i have no idea...... and i don't dare to ask.

For now, just wait.

As we try to sabo the newly wed...

My ex-colleagues!

See all our Chau Bin..

HP and EX-HP Runners Gathering

Irene and myself

Happy 2nd Quarter Babies Birthday!

Sue & I (on the phone)..

Some Floorball pics

2009-06-23T09:41:00.007+08:00

Sigh.. League is coming to and end yet again. I wonder if its my last season with Titans... But i'm glad i'm a part of the time now. Hopefully i can cope and manage my time well enough to still continue to play...

1st Game: NUS vs Pasirians

After 1st Period
Last period.

De-Brief!

Monthly Ritual

2009-06-23T09:20:00.013+08:00

Seems like my blogging has become a monthly ritual. Somehow i've been so busy and caught up with work that i havent had much time to actually sit down and blog. I like reading others' blog though.. keeps me up to date with what's going on in my friends' life...
Anyways, silly me.. just realised i had pictures that i wanted to upload to my blog in my laptop already.... i thought i hadn't yet transferred over from my harddisk... Must be the age catching up. hahaha

Anyways, another lovely month and this month i got a pleasant surprise.. A cute lil Hello Kitty on a plane and ermmm Hello Kitty snacks and ermmmm Hello Kitty water bottle? Somehow my baby thinks i'm in love with this mouthless cat =P But i love 'em anyways =)
its so funny coz i just got to his place and he beckoned me to his room. Fling away the blanket and voila, all the snacks arranged nicely on the bed. HAhha i just burst out laughing coz i wasn't expecting him to actually bother to lay them out to show me. Normally its just 'stuff everything in plastic bag' and then 'Nah, give you'... hahaha yup, that was funny..

Busy and boring month. Nothing exciting happened. Except maybe, just maybe... still keepin my finger crossed that i have some baby news in my family. So excited! =) Busy plannin for our trip which keeps getting foiled... H1N1.. bla bla... And i was studyin for exams... working on a gift and i guess i've finally taken the plunge to further my studies.
HOPE I DON'T SCREW UP! Sigh... stressedddddddddd...

Oh well, enough of boring words... Some pics from Mother's Day and gatherings. Hmmm i have yet to celebrate Father's day!!!

Irene and myself (only ladies in HP runner's group)

(EX-)HP runner's group
Sue trying to smear cake on my face! Happy Birthday 2nd Quarter babies! =)

A Primary school gathering. W.O.W

Womie's Birthday @ Picotin

Childhood sweethearts =P

Happy Mommy's Day! (My mum will kill me for putting up such unglam pics)

Mother's Day dinner @ M Hotel

My bro's 33rd Birthday and Da-Sao

And a very expensive cake from Cedele!!! =P

A month!

2009-05-19T16:35:00.002+08:00

Wow, its really easy to forget all about blogging when you're tied up with events. I realised since my league started, somehow.... my work picked up pace and i'm totally filled to the brim.
Been so busy past 2 weeks with tenders that i can hardly breathe coz its the first time i'm doing it. Not used to having been told bits n pieces of information still, but i'm slowly learning. Got back from a short biz trip to Vietnam and what can i say? Culture difference!

Picked up golfing as well and i'm halfway through.. I am quite bad at it at first, slowly getting the hang of it, i hope? Cant understand how pple can get addicted to it, coz i'm not. =P
I'm really happy that my best bud's future has been paved. The oh-so-perfect relationship every girl would like =) CONGRATS! Not forgetting i have 2 other MAJOR weddings in August and December! Gonna have to be the 'sister'...

Life's good for us and past month was peaceful =P I'm also really happy that i actually scored a goal in the first game for the league!!!!! First time.... n a very very rare occasion! haha, more to come i hope!

Had a simple Mother's day at M Hotel.. Pics will be posted another time..
For now......

Eventful Week!

2009-04-20T10:11:00.002+08:00

It's been only a week since Good Friday?!? The last week was quite a drag. Maybe coz i had quite a bit (a tad bit too much) alone time..
Following the fantastic Wii party we had, we had trainings on Wed, Sat and our game vs Pasirians on Sunday. Floorball overdose... haha
Spent the week psyching myself up for the league! Finally kicked off our first game yesterday and it was heart-stopping really. Down by 0-2 and managed to catch up from behind and win 5-3. Miraculously, i scored a goal!! Damn happy about it. Really spurred me to try even harder for the upcoming games. Tho i was a little xianz coz i din get to play anymore immediately after i scored. Just when i was so hyped up and all... haha, but its OK la..
Sunday games really burn my weekends. Doesn't help that the weather all weekend was Scorching, humid and the smelly halls... *eeewwww* gave me such a headache after that.

Besides that, it was quite an eventful week. Met up with Mdm Ong and Ms Chia for dinner and caught up with them. Talkin bout our jobs and all... I really do miss them and the rest STILL.. It was nice!! Met up with Clara and some others after that for coffee and pool. First time gathering and i think clubbing suits them better. haha

I'm all psyched up about the travel plans that are slowly taking shape with the girls. I think i can do with one like right now!

OK, on a more serious note, i'm absolutely happy to tears that my bud had gotten her flat and been proposed to... I think everything's fallin in place and i'm just so excited for her!! Congrats, womie! The day we knew would come (and have dreamed of) 10 years ago, is here! =)
Although nothing has changed, selfish ol' me just cant help feelin like i'm losing her... haha

For myself, we had a hellava roller coaster conversation on wednesday night that left us both pretty drained. I really learnt a lot from what we talked about that night and i must say that i'm surprised by how serious he actually is.. And i'm glad we talked coz it turns out we're actually on the same line, its just that things were not laid out clearly, so he assumed other stuff and scared himself out... Anyways, the bottomline is, dont jump into anything u may regret later...

On a side note, i have been conversing with many others and well, as least from a girl's pt of view, you will actually notice that most girls actually WANT to settle down young (nowadays, young is like 28?)... Although i've spoken to many others who are like still 28 or more, they all say they dont wanna settle down or too early n they think we're too young to be thinkin bout settling down. But if you think it through, it really just boils down to a few common facts. They are single or haven found the one.
Ask any ordinary girl who's say about 25 and have dated seriously for about 2 years? They will be ready to settle down. So my conclusion is that some girls who say they dont wanna get married (so young), in actual fact means "i'm single".. Coz if the converse is true for them, they would be wallowing in self pity which is sad. So some guys who feel that girls can afford to just wait till like 35 to get married, what's the rush? Do you really want to think this way? 'fraid not.

Fwiii-Day!

2009-04-13T15:50:00.012+08:00

HAhhaaaa, many events and gatherings after i got back and before i knew it, its like Mid April already!
I just realised i cant imagine life without floorball... we see each other every week (more often than i meet my close pals), now we see each other twice or even 3 times a week... i talk to a few of them almost everyday and life seems to just revolve around floorball..

Tenses was such fun, seeing all my old teammates turn up!
Then we had endless friendlies, before the actual league starts this weekend!
Not forgettin we had the good fwiiday, which was a bunch of fun as usual =)
Too many games suddenly!!! hahaha but its always gd fun!!
Had dinner with Doreen as well, who's gonna get married like soon!!!!! N there we were going on n on bout house talk. A out of the blue Wee Nam Kee Chicky Rice lunch with woman, to talk through my (our) grouses.. Family gathering for Qing Ming... n dinner with Mdm Ong and Ms Chia... On the other hand, i'm getting lazier n lazier on weekends... hahaha tired from sat's training.. age is catchin up!!!

I learnt over the weekend that i cant control how a person wants to spend his money, but i can only advice n say that much. 'Nuff said...

Angsana Bintan!!

2009-03-27T16:27:00.012+08:00

My Short trip turned out to be REALLY SHORT... and it was over before i knew it.
It was absolutely fun and tried out many activities. Went canoeing, sailing, jet-skiing and indulged in a spa package. Hence the pocket was pretty much empty thereafter.
Oh well, money earned is meant to be spent ya?

hahaha, i came back with a terrible ache all over and burnt face n shoulders..
Too bad he suffered from food poisoning before we left. So the first day was quite taxing on him actually... GOod thing is he managed to recover. PHEW

Back from the break and all prepared to start afresh at work. No more mistakes and all... but sometimes i feel its so hard to do what they want. Different pple want different things!! sigh..

Had a refreshing call frokm Uncle Koh and boy do i miss them =( and somehow these HP guys did not spare me and bombarded me after lookin at my fb pics... tsk tsk

March's coming to an end and so is the first quarter of 2009... Been jam packed with activities every month... coz all our birthdays are together and trips, CNY, V-day.. bla bla. NOt that i mind at all. Now to plan for the next trip!!! =)

Some snapshots to end of for now =P

Move on...

2009-03-17T10:37:00.002+08:00

Cant believe what a horrid weekend i had...
The 2nd Friday the 13th in 2009. It really traumatized me... I made such a big blunder at work, that i was totally shaken and absolutely frightened.. Left me in a trance all weekend.
Thank goodness, i came back yesterday and told a boss about it and he kinda 'consoled' me... He was so so nice about it towards me that i totally cant take it. Quickly take cover in the toilet.. hahahaha

Anyways, i gotta move on and i'm taking steps to prevent it from happenin again. FOCUS FOCUS!

Sigh.. other than that, Sat was tiring and i had a splitting headache at the end of the day. I had a friendly against OWLS @ RP @ 10am. Like how freakin farrrrrrr.... rushed over for piano lessons after that and went to Yiwen's place to see baby nathan.. MY goodness, he's soooo cute! but coz he's only like 3 weeks old, he still looks a little 'raw' and very very fragile that i dun dare to carry him, for fear of crushin him! haha

Ironically, hearing her talk about childbirth, the bare facts laid out, i really dun wanna give birth anymore.. At least not yet... or not until the time comes or something. I'm just thinking like Ewwwwwww and OUCHhhhhhhhh, i soooooooooo dun wanna go thru that!!! =( So ladies, think twice about it. Its not like in the shows at all... Popping a baby sounds simple, but it really really isn't so... =

Anyways, Sunday came and i still felt drained. Drove to airport and in an attempt to buy some east side food, i had to parallel park at this claustrophobic place and *EEEEEEeeeeeee*, i scratched my car, by a huge lorry.. SOBSOB... Guess my unlucky streak from Friday hadn't ended.
I was in a daze, but luckily the sight and touch of him just took my mind off things for awhile.

I hope this week passes by peacefully... Lookin forward to this weekend!!! =)

So so so tired...

2009-03-11T14:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, things can get really tiresome when you have to think and think and 2nd guess what others' are thinking.
My experience from past lessons taught me never to set expectations that are too high or even normal. It's tiring trying to meet expectations all the time. Why dont we just take a step back and be ourselves rather than try too hard? Makes life easier.. Communication is still key and it's the main problem still.
I'm like a loudhailer, facing a bottle of pent-up feelings.
What should i do? i'm already trying... I thought everything was fine and dandy, even great! but apparently that's just on the surface. The turmoil beneath the surface was something i wasn't expecting and it bothers me that i am clueless.
Why?

Move on....

2009-03-03T14:51:00.028+08:00

Some picture updates.... I'm beginning to really hate my camera... =( So pixated... i really love love Canon Camera!!! Anyways, these few photos mean that it's time to move on...

I had a great Friday... Apparently its a tradition in the company to have a cake for the birthday person.. so i had a cake!

He picked me up for dinner and made me do something like really childish!!!! BLindfolded me all the way till we reach!! My gawddddd... hahaha so duhhhhh.. so when i reached, i was like 'uh-oh' sinful dinner ahead.. haha true enough, i had like 5-6 buffalo wings (including like roasted chicken n pork rib) SO MEATY!!! My goodness....

Headed to Jewel box for drinks with Gerard n Kalin thereafter..

Sat i had a BAD friendly with Tempest... Had a cake and headed to Minori @ UE Square for dinner... =) Starbucks for coffee after that..

Sun met with 5 Mozzies for lunch @ Tinhill.. Pretty cool place and great for catching up...

Heard about matters of the heart n all, which is what we all do when we meet up nowadays.. hahaha.. Lastly, dinner with my folks @ Seafood Paradise @ Singapore Flyer.. Not too bad at all...

yesterday, it was back to work... My weekend went away all too quickly!!! =(

Queen of the day...mwahahahah

With 2 other pisceans....

Strawberry Shortcake

@ ITE Machpherson

First Quarter Babies!

Awfully Chocolate Banana

Yes, dumb.. i know...

Seafood Paradise

FULL family portrait...

Bro n Da Sao (SEE HIS SHIRT?!?! =))

Mummy n Daddy

Mummy! (Mirror image, NOT)

Bakerz Inn

Office Celebrations

Steak Frite

Fish n Chips!

Wagyu Burger.. SLURPS!

Cheesy as it may sound... Women forever!!! =)

The 5 Mosquitoes! =P

Jewel Box

White Wine

Piggy Pong

SPICYyyyyyyyyyyy

2009-02-27T15:02:00.001+08:00

HaPpY

BiRtHdAy!!

Someone Please Stop the Time!!!

2009-02-26T10:55:00.008+08:00

Panick mode now...

Perhaps coz the past few days were so chaotic.. I was thrown a stack of information and suddenly i had to do up a proposal that i had little or zilch knowledge about and had to absorb within a day or may i say hours... we're talking tens or hundreds of millions here......
I like being busy, but not busy pickin up pieces of info and having to sift through rubbish...
ANyways, things finally slowed down a little today and i hope i have a peaceful day..

Haha, the powers of facebook... someone just changed the status and created a ruckus... friends all teasing him and givin him a hellava hard time.. It's quite funny actually.. =P
Had a great meet up with my woman few days back... who got me a passport holder (coz i travel more now) and some hand lotion. So LOVED! Had a great meal and took my maiden's ride in her New Car.. Shared with her bf.. seems like roads are all paved for a future together.. =) so happy for them...

And my first weekday trainin yesterday.. i almost died! sooooooo tiringggggg.. sigh, but it felt good.. haha
Met my mama and jie jie as well... whom i really love love.....
Hmmm, been havin a lot of supper lately as well, so i better watch it.. else its not gonna help!!! =P Some pics! =)

Jiejie

Gyu Kaku

Prive Hazelnutt Choc Mousse.. SLURPS

Love-A-Lot Bear

HP love love

Mama!

2009 Valentine's Day!

2009-02-18T14:24:00.008+08:00

Happy Valentines' Day! I miss the school days actually, when you'll get many gifts and chocs from guys and friends. Its a so-called Friendship Day... =)
This year's V-day fell on a Saturday, so training was as usual. I even went to teach...
We had a camera woman coz she had her wisdom tooth removed (OUCH).. and for the first time, i have proper pictures of me and my stick after playin for 6 years... haha...
Thanks to all, who were with me on V-day! And our dinner date at a gal's bf's place... Gd guy gd guy =P Thanks everyone for being my friend.. Love love! =)

Passes.. Now i realise how i always dun BEND MY KNEES!

I love this pic! hahaha =)

(Half of) Team Titans!

Sesame Rice @ Gyu Kaku

Love-A-Lot Carebear!

Hazelnutt Praline Choc Mousse Cake @ Prive

Totally Pigging-out

Slurp Slurp

That was how my V-day concluded... I wonder how my birthday this year is gonna be like... haha, its been awhile since i had those parties or big gatherings.. You know how we always have the whole class celebrate together when we were in school? THose were the days.. Like what my friend said "after you hit 25, your life is in fast forward mode"... which i really think so..

My mum is not helping either.. which makes me frustrated sometimes coz certain things are not up to me and i cant make any decisions on my own...

Oh well, that aside.. i have made some big decisions... and if everything goes accordin to my plan ( i need lots of luck for it... though i think my chances are very slim)... i will start afresh in July and the next 2 years i foresee will be a breeze.. Otherwise, i'll just consider taking my piano exam once again...... =)

Thanks for everything! =)

Mind Boggling

2009-02-11T09:32:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i feel i'm not being included or told much about stuffs going on. Probably coz its trivial to others. But i dont like to think that there are things that i 'dont need to know'... Hence, communication problem arises. All those "i thought", "i think" and "i didn't know".. Even things like "I had too much for lunch and i'm so full" are redundant things, but sometimes we just say it, dont we? Well, maybe only I do...

Anyways, its just a one-off complain here coz i'm a little vexed.
Our consensus was that we do not think too far and just live by the day. True, its too early to be thinking too far.. But i dont see the 'intention' to 'think or plan' far, which despairs me.
Since it makes me feel down, i psych myself not to think, but the matter of fact is that we have to, isn't it? Sooner or later...
Some things, if you do not plan or start early, it will be TOO late.
Like it or not, i HAVE to NOT think so as to avoid head-on discussions. i cant trust myself and i may push it too far... therefore scaring off the other party.

Believe it or not, its making me AFRAID to think sometimes. I can only keep these thoughts to myself. Of coz, its easy to say dun care about what others say and dun think, dun be affected.. But at least if i know watz the plan, i have an answer. Without a plan, its still just like any other acquaintance isn't it?

I do not hope for much anymore. Expaserated at times, but i just think of a back door for myself. The reality of life is as such. You cant fight it. When the time comes after 2 years, i will contain my thoughts no more. Make it or break it. Who knows, by then i'll be so terrified that a decision will be reached easily.. haha

BUt for now.... i guess i'm happy =)

Just Some pictures

2009-02-10T10:16:00.005+08:00

Basically, these are the folks i last saw before i left....

Happy Chinese Valentines' Day!!

2009-02-09T15:46:00.002+08:00

This marks the end of CNY 2009.
soooooooo fast...

I survived my first week of work in the Singapore office and i'm glad that i actually have work to do n i was at least kept occupied during office hours. Not too busy, not too nua... A gd start, i felt. Beginnin to feel useful again...
Been psycho-ed to probably study again... thinking about it and doing some background studies. If i'm accepted, i'll probably give it a shot then. Otherwise, i'll do other things to entertain myself.. like pick up my violin, master my etudes etc...

It's been a great week and i'm loving every minute of it now. Except i kinda screwed up last week but making someone angry. Well, i was angry initially for a bit coz some things that were deemed too trivial were not spelt out, hence there were some miscom. After that, i was a little dissed coz i was thought to be venting my anger about something else on him, which definitely wasn't the case. I was sulking over a friend who flew my kite no doubt, but i swear i wasn't venting my frustrations what-so-ever...

For the very first time, i see you like that. Scared the hell outta me and immediately, i was afraid and regretted what i've said. Sigh... Felt so bad about it. So funny that just a few hours before this incident, i just posted a note on FB on things about me.. Pple kept sayin it seems like i wanna get married, which was the last thing on my mind for now. It is still uncertain who's THE ONE.. Communication needs to be worked on.

We got over it quickly and i guess it's a lesson learnt.
My ex-colleague just gave birth to a princess! Congrats!

Back to Reality

2009-02-02T09:33:00.003+08:00

I packed my bags and said goodbye..

It was sad leaving coz i see some of them were really sad to see me go... (not that i'm like some big shot or saint) but made some purely great friends there, which surprised me.. yet i'm happy!

I had a great steamboat party at my place and it was a BANG, albeit the lack of space.. Had the privilege of having a big boss make his famous cheesecake for me.. my boss got me a gift as well and the girls who helped out, i'm really thankful for them all...

Thereafter, i packed my luggage with a heavy heart and got over it when i hadtrouble closing my luggage with all my barangs.. haha then came my last night on Monday. Had a farewell dinner yet again and gathered @ Armin's place after that. Night of catch up and chit chat, recollections, advice... People present, An, Sia, Armin, Phoe, Ruki, Ed.. these are the people who stuck by me and really cared for me while i was in Kuantan.. taking care of me and all. Really appreciated it......

The next morning, i left with a heavy heart again. But once i was on the airplane headed for SIN, my spirits lifted at the thought of seeing my loved ones so soon! =P n So, i waited n waited at the airport and finally, i see.......... and had a great and FULL dinner @ Serangoon..

Had a good 2 days to ourselves before he left and then it was reunion's dinner... Everything happened quickly.. For the very first time, i went visiting on the very first day of New Year and i had fun.. But i felt bad coz i didn't make it back in time to help my mum host my uncles n aunts =( end up my dad had to pick me up at Bishan MRT and headed straight to Uncle's place.. Sigh..

2nd day was fun. I went over and we played some Rockband.. i'm gettin better at the guitar... and later that night, talks about violin got me interested in picking it up.. but to spend another grand on it, i really need to think it through...

3rd day, everyone's SUPPOSED to be working already but when we went to vivo, its jam packed with human creatures, even more so than on normal weekends. Strange.. My mum cooked a feast and we had a great dinner, followed by Blu-Ray!! I've been having an urge to spend money these days, i've still got quite some new clothes, so i can only buy like shoes, shoes n more shoes? :P and i bought like 7 books! hahaha, crazy meeeeeee

4th day, nua day... 5th day, shopping...... n my HP Bosses came over that night. It was really fun, coz they brought their kids and it was so noisy n all! i had like 5 kids, jumpin around in my room, on my bed, runnin ard... haha. COuld have been better if i din have 2 last min ladies who fly my kite, the 2 that i was most eager to meet and confide in.. =( Well, no choice...

Weekend came and i can finally have some proper, serious training. I hope i dont get booted out of the team coz for the first time, Banana has to 'eliminate' players for registration... *gulps* By Sat, i'm already a bit depressed coz my long break's almost over!!! =( Had a steamboat dinner and then a homecooked meal for her birthday! It was pretty good and not too bad at all! *pat pat* so proud of you.. hehe

Here i am today, back at work in Singapore office, like when i just switched a job. New @ work. Still free for now. waiting for work i guess...

My only regret during this long break i had, is that i didn't manage to go for a short trip, out of Singapore... =( Coz i was 'on-leave' and i cleared up all of them, so i'm starting from ground zero now and it means no leave for another 6 months before i can accumulate enough to go for a week-long holiday.. Not motivating at all.. Sigh

2009's starting off in a rush! it's February already!!

Happy Birthday Dad! =)

2009-01-19T09:17:00.002+08:00

Yet another year... the first quarter is always a busy one in my family... Dad, kor and my birthday... plus CWY...

I'm almost done. Now's the time to pack my bags n leave..
Its funny that I have to leave, just when I was getting quite close to the girls.
I wasn't expecting any close bonds, but seeing how nice and caring they've been.. it touches my heart.. Not forgetting my boss here... They've been really sweet and i'll miss them!!!

I've also found out about some asshole, who i will avoid totally... cant fathom whats on his mind and neither am i bothered to think bout it... just stay far far away from me..

Cant wait to get back into the groove for my floorball again. N ya, time to lose the weight i gained here.. haha (if i can)...

What a Drag

2009-01-15T09:25:00.002+08:00

My last days in the office are hard to pass......
Time passes even more slowly than it normally does =(
Finally made it to Thursday.
Dinner every night from now and i'll be back!
Big gathering comin up on Sat which i'm looking forward to.. haha

On a side note, the stupid Acc B***H is drivin me crazy.. i'm pissed with her.
she's known for being one, so pls mind my unpleasant jargon.
She's holding back my claims and allowances coz she says 'nobody told her i'm leaving' and trying to ask around (anyone but me) on when i started driving here and stuff.. bla bla bla
so basically its been like a month overdue and she is still not releasing the cheque to me...
!&*^A#$ i went to look for her straight and have her sign everything for me.. she still wanted to drag it till the day b4 i leave, i said NO, by tomorrow...

Such pple do exist... my goodness....... =

i'm comin home, baby!

2009-01-13T14:13:00.002+08:00

i can officially start my countdown for my return!! Wow, i cant hardly wait!!!
1 more weeeeeeeek!!!!
I really cant wait to be back home, enjoy my CNY and get ready to start work in my Singapore office again. I wonder if my cubicle is still around.. haha
At the same time, i'm afraid i'm not up to the tasks expected of me when i return. hard to say...

Seems like i've been here only 6 weeks more than 6 months... maybe due to me going back home once in awhile..
STILL, it feels really painful to be away for so long.. The torment of having to leave at that time, due to my 'immaculate' timing is fading away... My stint away was a test.. Now that i'm gonna be back home, i'm faced with another test. I hope we can survive..

N so, here we go again... farewell dinners, goodbyes, departures..

Mummyyyyyyyyyy, its OVERrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Rendered Speechless

2009-01-10T09:11:00.002+08:00

Chat with mummy yesterday left me dumbfounded and i felt heavy-headed thereafter.
It just didn't occur to me that she had 'such thoughts' on her mind..
Out of care and concern for me of coz...
After knowing the truth and plans, she was disappointed and i'm guessing i have only succeeded to make her worry or get anxious.. i would love to make her happy but its not my call. Not our call..
Too soon..

Damn, i still cant believe it.. *stunned*

2009 challenges

2009-01-09T09:03:00.002+08:00

I can foresee some challenges coming up in 2009..
Work-wise: i've had a few roadblocks regarding my return to Singapore. One moment, they need me back ASAP... Another moment, they want me to extend my stay. However, it seems like they do not know what they want and are indecisive, which really drives me bonkers.. Make up your MIND, dude! So i guess when i'm back, i really gotta try to outperform the rest (at not slacking??)... haha

Personal life-wise: i've flown a kite or 2 due to family matters.. i just hope i can make up for it when i return for good.. =( i didn't even get to pass my best friend's xmas pressie! Gosh... i've seen how fragile human life is. i need to get back in the game for my league.. i wonder how things will turn out when i go back and lead my routine life, since i'm no longer overseas. The irony is that i think we will communicate lesser when i'm back and workload increases(i really hope it does)... we'll see..

I'll be teaching again and my Sat mornings are burnt again! Mixed feelings bout this, but i really do miss my kids...

Somehow the thought of turning 26 freaks me out.. Took awhile to turn 25 and after having reached the quarter centurion mark, it seems like life is being fast-forwarded. the big '3' is calling out to me! So much things to do and work out, so little time!! the future is still a big unknown. i'm waiting.........

Time, waits for no one...

Enjoy every moment!

Merry Xmas and a very Happy New Year!!

2009-01-05T08:49:00.005+08:00

A tad bit retarded... haha
This time round i wasn't so busy meeting up with different peeps everyday, squeezing my schedule coz it was more family oriented...
I was happy my Xmas and New Year's Eve dinners weren't too ex.. i dun really like to think that we are paying more for the same stuff just because all those restaurants come up with a special xmas/new year menu and have a different price list altogether. It was Great!

A Xmas gift that really caught me by surprise as well, since i wasn't really expecting it. Love it loads! Thanks!! and of coz, finally getting everything over and done with and getting that BAR... Congrats! =)

A wii party that never fails to crack me up...

B4 i knew it, 2009 arrived! And i felt like time was flying too quickly!
just a sudden shudder at the mere thought of me turning 26 so soon... *shivers*
Hope all goes well in 2009!!! Been hearing some shocking news that scares me and really worries me...

For a first, an 8-mth pregnant pal met with an accident.
A seemingly normal and perfect 5 year r'ship on the rocks.
Why are all these things happening?

I wanna live life, lovin it in 2009. Somehow 2008 wasn't that satisfactory... really a roller coaster ride in a way.. many changes and i hope they are blessings in disguise... =)

I really need to lose some weight. I'm beginning to hate taking pictures.. arggghhhhh =(

All Smiles

2008-12-23T16:25:00.001+08:00

I was all smiles when i heard all the plans... =)
At least i know everything is in order and i have something to look forward to..
Nothing extraordinary.. but taking the effort to think and reserve/book.
I'm happy already.. Easy to please? =P
hahahaha

Ho Ho Ho

2008-12-23T09:21:00.002+08:00

A Stone off my chest finally...

I'm soooooooooo hooked to wii!!! cant wait for xmas!!!!!
woohoo!!!

One last hurdle...

2008-12-22T08:47:00.002+08:00

One more hurdle after xmas and that's it!
Hoping and praying that things will go well.. =)

Anyways, i had a fun-filled fantabulous weekend... well, the best i've had out of the many months i've been here.. Friday night was a girls' night sesh @ Phoebe's place, gossiping, bitchin bout work, deciding what to wear for our Annual Dinner the next day..
Sat was the dinner.. After work, i went to shop around a bit, bumped into like so many colleagues at the mall (coz there's only TWO malls here).. *faint*
We met earlier to hang out and so they cld go wash hair.. since i went to the hairdresser with 2 of the girls, they psychoed me to do my hair and so in the end, i had plaits in my head... grrrr

Dinner was a normal affair.. Won a freakin bulky lucky draw prize, which i think is a hi-fi. have yet to open it.. After that we (the younger group) went for drinks at a club... surprisingly my boss had permit to come out as well, so he joined us.
By the time i got back n all, it was 3am!!
its been a long time since i went out for drinks and club till so late!!! i feel oldddd.. well, i've been out late till such unearthly hours tho, not for drinks...haha

So Sunday was dong1 zhi4... basically tang yuan day.. i had SOOOOOO MANY tang yuan i wanna puke already.. Got invited to a few colleagues' place to eat, which kinda reminded me of home, but its alright since i'm coming home soon!!! And so there you have it, my busy weekend! haha... Xmas is coming!!!!!!!!! =)

Congratulations! Good luck for that last one...

I'm dreaming of a white christmas....

2008-12-18T11:51:00.002+08:00

With every Christmas Card i wrote...
May your days be merry and bright..
And may all your christmases be white......

Christmasy mood =)

RIP...

2008-12-16T09:06:00.002+08:00

Seems like you really need to run the factory before 30 at the very least, once...
Otherwise, the repercussions..

Unbearable...

Be strong, girl..

The Monk Who Sold his Ferrari

2008-12-15T08:37:00.002+08:00

An average person runs 60000 thoughts through his mind. 95% are the same ones you thought the day before, most of them negative. The Tyranny of impoverished thinking. Bad mental habits. These people have fallen prey to become captives of their pasts.
What separates upbeat and optimistic people from those who are consistently miserable is how the circumstances of life are interpreted and processed. There are no mistakes or negative experiences in life, only opportunities to learn and grow. From struggle comes strength.

More often than not, we chase after the big pleasures in life and miss out on the little ones.
Stop spending so much time making a living, spend more time creating a life.
We have had dreams. We have had nightmares. We overcome the nightmares because of our dreams.

The mind is a wonderful servant but terrible master. Use it or lose it.
Your thoughts form the world. Your quality of life boils down to the richness of your thoughts.

Happiness comes when you find something you truly love to do and channel all your energy towards it. Success, like happiness, cannot be pursued. It must be ensued.

Fatigue is a creation of the mind. Fatigue dominates the lives of those who are living without direction and dreams. It is a bad mental creation by your mind, cultivated to act as a clutch when you are performing a tedious task.

What lies behind you and what lies in front of you is nothing when compared to what lies within you.

It is important to build strength of character, develop mental toughness and live with courage. These 3 attributes would lead one not only to a virtuous life but to a life filled with achievement, satisfaction and inner peace.
Courage is a quality worth cultivating and it pays huge dividends over the long run.

“The only limits on your life are those that you set yourself. Step out of your comfort zone and explore the unknown to liberate your true human potential. This is the first step towards self-mastery and mastery over every other circumstance in your life.”

Are you breathing already?

2008-12-15T08:32:00.002+08:00

Past week was a short one... after my longgggg weekend.. followed by some shocking news.. what a week i must say..

Suddenly, i was needed back in Singapore like ASAP... but i still had things i needed to wrap up.. so end up my return is not THAT much earlier than planned. Sighhhh, happy for nothing.

My Xmas and New Year plans are in danger of being thwarted. So sad =( Keepin my fingers crossed for now..

My everyday gchat buddy is off to Taiwan now... =( i wanna go for a holiday too!!! i hope i can have a mini one b4 i start work in Singapore full swing.

1 more week!!!

Please live...

2008-12-10T12:20:00.003+08:00

Please start breathing.... please please please..
I pray for a miracle..
So so so hard.
That's all i ask for now....

i'm keeping you in my prayers..

Madagascar 2

2008-12-06T09:57:00.005+08:00

You gotta move it move it..

Alex the Lion, Marty the Zebra, Melman the Giraffe and Gloria the Hippo
Morty!! (My fav)

See how fast you type!

2008-12-04T16:23:00.001+08:00

Must be my MSN trainin.. haha =P

368 points, so you achieved position 37167 of 1388189 on the ranking list
You type 475 characters per minute
You have 86 correct words
andyou have 0 wrong words
86 words per minute

Visit http://speedtest.10-fast-fingers.com/

2008-12-04T15:17:00.002+08:00

We forgot the most impt thing!!! To take a picture.. Super *faint*
My goodness.... =P hahahaha

I think i seriously have a problem......
I try too hard..... Try too hard to make people around me happy or to accommodate them. Well, thing is.. i'm very upset when people around me are down. So i take it upon myself to make them happy or cheer them up. Hence i appear bubbly. Sometimes, it takes a toll of me as well... and because i dont want others to be affected, i cont to 'appear' happy...
Also, i always take on more things than i can handle... to please everyone. Or perhaps i know my buddies care about me and i want to try my best to spend time with them. However, time is limited... i Squeeze my schedule to fully utilize my time. Gets tiring once in awhile..

Guess i need to learn to please MYSELF for a start... haha =P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2008-12-02T13:30:00.002+08:00

I'm so happy i got much accomplished. But i think i've neglected my family...
I'll make up for it next time round.
Happy Birthday! You're finally '3' hahaha =)
Think i kinda ruined the eve of it =(
Things din go quite like how i planned as well, but guess we had fun..
For now, good luck!!! *praying*

Sorry!!!

Retirement..

2008-11-24T13:04:00.002+08:00

My dad was telling me about him clearing leave and that he will have a slight change of job scope n stuff. Puzzled me for a moment, then i realised... coz he's of age to retire, but his boss still wants his around. Suddenly, i felt like my dad's really aging already. And i feel like a spoilt little girl who hasn't grown up.

Ideally, i should be looking after my parents now.. since my bro's not ard.. i should be the one buying the daily necessities @ home, payin all the bills, maintenance, car and even their well-being. Yet i'm not really doing all those. Although i give a lot of allowance for them monthly. Just feel that they are still lookin after me, rather than the other way round. Then again, i will always be looked after this way no matter what, till the day i get married off. haha
But i feel its a good thing my dad continues working to keep his brain active n all... Stayin @ home with nothing to do is boring too.. i really gotta stop relying on them...

Sigh, how long more can i have the freedom to use the car... =P sobsob

when will i grow up??

Daniel Powter - Next Plane Home

2008-11-24T10:39:00.001+08:00

I woke up early to baby blue eyes from the afar whoah whoah
and when the sun comes through and lights you like the angel you are whoah whoah
I know I do you wrong when I’m with you I’ve been gone

With every season change, it looks the same (november to june) whoah whoah
And dont these empty streets skip a beat the flowers dont bloom whoah whoah

I can’t believe I missed your birthday again
and I wanna come back but I just don’t know when now

And I’m so lonely your not here with me
That’s why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

The road that never ends around the bend I see your smile whoah whoah
I’d swim across the sea to be with you for a while whoah whoah
cos I’m made a life would be gone
now the way that I feel is I just don’t belong

And I’m so lonely you’re not here with me
thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home
And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see
thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

Stand around try to make every moment
and be somebody yeah anybody
it seems the whole world is taking me over
I need somebody to help me get back to it

and I’ve always been a million miles away
but things are gonna change
I just wanna come home

And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see
thats why I gonna be on the next plane home
yeah I’m taking the next plane home
Now I’m getting the next plane home
Now I’m taking the next plane home

Constructiveness

2008-11-21T10:16:00.002+08:00

Yup, after the hoo haa n all... i'm actually glad for that conversation, albeit a little harsh.. But it was constructive..

At least now i feel happy and i know what we are thinking. today is Monday Number Five.. haha, hang on baby.. mama's comin back! =P

Broken Wings

2008-11-19T11:03:00.002+08:00

Just when i was tellin woman how absolutely great everything is, something not so great happened.
It is when i realised being understanding does not equate to sparing a thought for others.
Only last night i found out the difference. I may be understandin, but i guess i dont spare a thought for others at times.

It was a topic we dont like to think or talk about. All along, i thought its coz he doesn't want to. THen it dawned on me, that perhaps its coz he is unable to at the moment. Which made me feel bad. Ugly things were said and feelings hurt. Fo..r the first time.
I didn't know how pressurizing my comments were, really. I guess i pushed it to the limits when i heard those words.
I'm happy with the way it was handled though.

I've been hurt before and i know it hurts... But i just only found out that to hurt someone is even more painful. Much more painful, esp when you know that someone doesn't deserve it.

On a lighter note, Clarisse's mum just told me what a monster the little doll is becoming and i can just imagine.. =) AND, my other JC buddy is getting married in another year or 2's time. Swift.

Sorry...

1 week more!

2008-11-18T08:45:00.002+08:00

1 week more and my torture will end quickly...
My weekend was pretty much fulfiflling and went away too quickly! I've been pretty much a drama fanatic as well as a game fanatic. More than enough to keep me occupied.
3 on 3, here i come! Gosh, how i miss it so!!! the last time was @ Sentosa..
Cant wait!!!
Somehow this year i feel like something's missin, probably coz i'm not joinin the stand chart, not that i'm a big fan of long distance running... well actually i detest it. haha, just that pple always want me to run with them. Been doing it for the past 3 years and it feels a lil empty now...
Sigh.. I'm gonna be so busy with the shirt distribution, considerin i dont have much time. I wonder why i go and try so hard to sell when the effort put in is not unanimous. Now i gotta follow up... Which is really tiring..

Wuffy!! Master of Facial Expressions!

2008-11-18T08:37:00.004+08:00

This cute little boy has all sorts of funny facial expressions! The most i've seen in any baby.. hahahaha, Damn Adorable! =) Makes you just wanna pinch his cheeks, dunch ya? =P

My Darlin' Niece

2008-11-18T08:34:00.003+08:00

My Goodness... how i miss Clarisse!!!! =)
Look how she's grown! Such a pretty princess!!!!!!
Guys out there, keep your saliva in check.. =P

What's wrong with me?

2008-11-14T09:09:00.002+08:00

I dunno what came onto me last night. Just felt sad and down... Moody..
Maybe it didn't start off on a right note. Maybe it was the look. I just thought, perhaps after 4 days of non-existence, eyes can be PEELED from work for just 5-10min to really just talk to me and do nothing else... Maybe that was just too much to ask for. Or maybe the plain sheet feeling was just overwhelming.. i dunno

Somehow, something that i was lookin forward to (very very much), blurred in front of my eyes. All of a sudden, i dreaded it. The ends of my lips cant curve up. I just cant help it...
Wrong start as i say. Slammed again by not including me in the misery and problems simply coz i dont understand.. Doesn't help either...

This makes me think back of my parents, like how my mum must have felt. Everytime she asks my dad bout his work, he just glazes through with ok or not ok. He says a little more, she asks 'what is it?' and she's promptly shut out with a 'tell you, you also dun understand'... i always feel bad for her whenever i see this coz havin been cooped up at home for so many years and not so good in english, a lot times you need more patience talkin to her. You cant just tell her things, you gotta EXPLAIN it, otherwise how can you expect her to understand?
I always get pissed at my dad coz of this... Maybe its just me.... again...

From this, I have also learnt that couples need to be able to talk to each other about work. Since your daily life constitutes like 50% in office.. if you go out, the only time you spend at home is to sleep. Imagine if you cant confide in your partner about your work, thats missin out on 50% of info about what goes on in his/her life. Isn't it impt then to be able to confide in each other? Otherwise, you end up talkin to your fellow colleagues bout it and thats when trouble lurks, if you confide in an opposite sex. Nothing wrong of coz.. but since you should be able to talk about everythin n anythin under the sky with your partner, how can you omit this huge 50% chunk? i dun want to end up in a situation, Whereby there's an invisible wall on certain topics not to be breached upon. That's where communication comes in...

Am i askin for too much again? Do others have the same sentiments? Just a thought..

i hope i didn't make anyone feel bad. Well, i know i dont have such strong impacts or other less emo creatures will probably be able to just shut out these stuff and go on doing their own things... i was really excited.. like leaping with joy, floating high high in a sky and i just got pricked. my bubble got burst and i free fall-ed.. i dont feel like going back anymore.

Been awhile...

2008-11-13T09:30:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i blogged on my boring daily life. After some time, if i keep doing that, i realise my life here is pretty monotonous.. But at least now i have a car, so i have freedom and more independent, rather than havin to wait for others... Feels soooooo much better!
Still doesn't dismiss the fact that there're limited activities here and i really miss my fb trainings =(

At least i'm halfway thru Nov now! lookin forward to my break..
After that, time will pass by quickly!! My dear daddy n mummy will do anything to accommodate their spoiled dotter.. =P so they'll be visitin me again and we'll be going to genting for a day!! yay!!!! =) n i just hope i can be home for xmas n New Year!

Anyways, i've come to realise that people here are just super lazy or to put it nicer, reliant on other people. I'm not used to it... I am very much more independent...
For instance, for a distance of only 5 metres, they will DRIVE.. To photocopy something, ask admin girl to do.. No folder access? Ask IT come.. need to scan? Ask admin girl do.. Book hotel? Ask admin girl do.. need some software? Ask IT come.. Cant connect to printer? ask IT.. Coffee? Ask tea lady make. Basically, they wont BUDGE...

I still prefer to do EVERYTHING on my own.. Even if i dont know how to configure, i'll try myself, that was how it was in HP... so when i was here, i remember askin people how to connect to a printer and everyone's reply was "mmm i don't know. Ask IT?"
i got so sick of it.. everything ask for help, i cant take it sometimes!

Now, waiting for you to wake up...

2008-11-13T08:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was forgotten......
Somehow, i'm not upset.. =)

2008-11-11T10:10:00.002+08:00

Was reading an excerpt.. and Thought about how we try to help our friends (or ourselves) matchmake sometimes.....
When you least expect it, it comes knockin at your door. If you missed the boat, it just means it was not meant to be. Treasure while you can...

Before we embark upon the journey of finding the relationship that is right for us, we may want to take the opportunity to refine our concept of who we are and our ideas of what we want from life. Part of the journey of finding a mate is learning how to become our own mate. When we can learn to meet our needs without relying on someone else to complete us, we don’t have to form relationships from the space of needing our emptiness to be filled. We can also discover our intrinsic value, separate from what someone else might be reflecting back to us.

Getting to know who we are and learning to love ourselves creates a solid foundation of self that we can bring to any relationship. We are fortunate to live in a time when relationships can unfold at a pace that is right for us and take unique forms. Friendship, dating, open relationships, long term relationships, long distance relationships, or committed relationships — we are free to choose the kind of relationships that we want.

If you want to be in relationship, but haven’t found the right one for you, remember that the universe works in perfect order and, therefore, right now your life is unfolding exactly as it is meant to be. Maybe all this time has been part of your preparation period for meeting your intended partner. Even the relationships in our lives that haven’t worked out as we had hoped serve us by teaching us to make better choices in our next relationships.

Finding the relationship we want can come early or later in life. It may even happen again and again in one lifetime. There is no right or wrong for how to find a relationship nor is there a timeline that you have to follow. Follow your heart, listen to your inner voice, continue to become your own soul mate, and stay open to love. The journey of finding the right relationship begins with being in right relationship with yourself.

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

2008-11-08T09:13:00.002+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Taking it for granted..

2008-11-08T09:00:00.004+08:00

Is that so?

Scene 1
Guy: If you're tired, let me know.. just go n zzz... dun try to keep yourself awake
Girl: Dun worry, if i wanna zzz i will just tell you..
Guy: OK

Scene 2
Girl: I'm very tired today, wanna zzz liao..
Guy: Oh Ok......
.
.
. (Intermittent slow replies)
.
.
Girl: Nvm, you go do your things. I buay tahan already.
Guy: Oops, sorry. I didn't know you were THAT tired.

HAh

Obama Rules

2008-11-07T15:02:00.002+08:00

The talk of the town past 2 days was about Obama.. I'm happy he won coz i support him. McCain had a spate of recent scandals... and what with Palin on board, i totally didn't like her at all... soooo, Hello Obama!!! I hope he can CHANGE America....

Wow, i'm pretty proud of myself.. that i was actually occupied the entire week!!! =)
It passed by so quickly and i'm sooooooo happy coz i just need to get past another 2 more weeks!!
In fact, even as i'm typing this now, i'm in a rush to go for a meeting sooooooooooooon....
Client on site this week, some reports to churn out and not forgetting spending some moments entertainin myself with smilebox and photofunia... i'm HAPPY! =)
Well, except tomorrow i gotta work.. =(

Hmmm, its funny how i can dont eat much here and yet feel like i'm not losing weight or getting fatter?!?! strange....

Ok ok, gotta go for meeting now...

Tough month ahead

2008-11-01T10:47:00.003+08:00

November is finally here.... Have got a tough month ahead of me.. MAJOR drought of holidays.. n i wont be able to go home till like end Nov.. =( sobsobsobsob
Quote a person's fav line "Bite the bullet" and it will be over soon.. and perhaps i will come out tougher..... Gawd, i've never dreaded NOT having holidays so much..

I just realised Canele Dessert actually falls under Les Amis, an award winning dining group. That explains the costly delicate cakes they have and the thick and good quality chocolates.. *slurps*

Sigh, low morale... Can only loOk forward to a package/letter that i was told is being sent to me.... i still want my CD and Jap DOLL.. =( boo hoo hoo

It's getting tougher by the day...

Happy Halloween!!! to myself

2008-10-31T09:45:00.002+08:00

Wooohoooo, so exciting!!
Happy halloween..... haha, i'll dress up in my pjs and scare myself to death.. duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, how unexciting.. pple here dun even know WHAT's halloween.. goodness gracious!!
i'm still in shock.. so much so for worldwide recession.... haha, i always wonder why would people rush to get phones that have just been launched as they are highly overpriced and when we ALL know the price will DROP... now i know why...
To love or hate Xperia? =P

Damage has been done...

2008-10-29T15:19:00.002+08:00

Uh oh.. this is it....... i have succumbed to temptations at last! hahaha, been scouring online shopping websites these 2 days due to a very very sudden urge to spend money! With a simple click and an email, i have purchased like 3 or 4 items!!!

It all started when my friend sent me this link and i saw 2 dresses that look quite nice and affordable, so i just randomly sent an email to order for fun.. BUT, both OUT OF STOCK!!! That got me started on online shopping. I was ready to splurge @ my fav VS webbie, but decided against it due to shipping costs and there weren't many new, nice and cheap dresses. made me even MORE eager to BUY something.. haha, so after hunting down many many many websites, i made my first purchase at 3:11pm.. =P

Oopsie... hahaha, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do...

The Spirit of Giving...

2008-10-29T09:58:00.003+08:00

A conversation yesterday set me thinking about this. Why do we bother to give gifts on birthdays, anniversaries, xmas, valentine's day etc..?
My mum always says "Dont buy things, so troublesome.. just eat". And when i give her a gift, the smile on her face makes my day. Deep down somewhere, every individual likes receiving presents. It shows you're on someone's mind/heart and that person takes the effort to make the purchase. Nowadays, to save time or be more practical, we end up giving "gift" vouchers... which is convenient i must say, but the meaning behind giving a present is lost, nonetheless.

I guess guys especially, take words at face value. I believe even if your folks or friends say a dinner treat will do and yet, you bought a small gift for them, they'll be really happy... coz with time, people take it for granted and forget all about the significance or meaning of gift giving, a sad fact of life.
Such a paradox..

Moral obligations of gift-giving leads to reciprocity in gift exchange.
Whatever happened to the relative meaning of "pure" gift giving, characterized by the absence of expectations of return gifts?
Gift giving occasions are opportunities to affirm one's personal bonds. To most people, there is no exchange rate in this respect between time/attentiveness and money. Time and attentiveness affirm personal bonds. Money cannot. No doubt about it...
However, there's this factor: "Affection-value added" - meaning that a certain item might not have a great value in itself, but the intention and affection behind adds a great amount of value. Buying chocolate or flowers for a girl is all about that - usually the girl would herself be able to buy all the chocolate and all the flowers she would want, hence the flowers and chocolate is merely signs of affection and on a more subtle level, recognition.

According to popular psychology, a significant gift is never just a gift, but something that successfully communicates how well you know and understand the person. Jewelers love to capitalize on this thought. If you really knew your wife, they hint, then you'd know she wants a diamond.
Well, just so that the significance of gift giving is not lost, just to recap on the meaning of certain special gifts and why some women swear by them... Ladies, let your guys know! =) Guys, for your knowledge... =P

Roses
Rose has been a symbol for love since ancient days. There is an interesting story about the creation of rose in Greek mythology: Chloris, the Goddess of flowers created rose by giving life to lifeless body of a nymph; Aphrodite, the Goddess of love gave her beauty and Dionysus, the God of wine presented her nectar to give her sweet scent; the three Graces gave her charm, brightness and joy. This is the reason for its popularity among lovers.
Of all roses, red rose is the ultimate symbol of love filled with romance and passion that signifies “I love you” and lilac rose signifies love at first sight. According to some traditions one red rose stands for "an only love", eleven roses stand for "a favorite", ninety nine roses mean " forever love" and hundred roses mean " marry me".

Diamond ring
Ancient Romans considered the ring as love symbol for the unbroken circle symbolizes eternity. In another story, it is said that cupid's arrows are tipped with diamonds. Gradually giving a diamond ring became a promise that they will soon become husband and wife. Presenting a diamond ring gives an eternal sense of love; it is a promise to someone and symbolizes fidelity.

Chocolates
In ancient days, chocolates are considered a gift from God as they are associated with spiritual wisdom and sexual powers. Aztecs believed that chocolates are associated with the Goddess of love and fertility, Xochiquetzal. Chocolate works like energy booster as the chocolate consumption releases a chemical into the body very similar to what is produced when you are in love. That's why chocolates are so popular among lovers.

Other matters

2008-10-27T14:20:00.002+08:00

Been soo caught up with those stuff on my mind that i forgot to write what i was supposed to, in the prev post..hahaha

FIRST: My surprise plan kinda got foiled due to someone's itchy backside... But good thing i found out early too, before i spent the money. Now there's another HEADACHE, what to buy?!?!

SECOND: I am sooooooooooooo gonna go try the Canele desserts when i get back!!! All those "thick and rich" talk makes me drooooooooool.

THIRD: I want a PROPER dim sum buffet =P

FOURTH (and Last): Now that i get to drive around here, i feel more independent and much much better. At least i do not have to wait for others anymore, not so reliant. Which i absolutely HATE! Except i gotta be a part-time chauffeur but its on the way, so i dont mind...... What to do, i'm independent and resent reliance.. Coz it makes me feel helpless and useless.. Individualistic. =P

Secrets...

2008-10-27T09:12:00.002+08:00

A recent episode last Thursday left me expanding to the brim of explosion!! It's fun at first, but has become a little bit tiring and to the point of me feeling bad... But i got over it fine =)

So... my long weekend here was coz of some Sultan's birthday on Friday and here i am working on freakin DEEPAVALI!!! So lonely... everyone's not online!! =(
Had a long quiet and peaceful weekend! seems like the previous weekends zipped past coz i was occupied. I felt relaxed the past few days.. But i know in the next FOUR weekends to come, before i have a chance to head home again, will CRAWL and evolve into a strong desire for....... arghh, dun think too far.

Finally did some updating on my facebook and then i realised how big a thing it has become coz EVERYONE's doing updates on it. Even more so than MSN... Had to think twice before uploading some pictures. Sensorship...

Most of the time i was just being a drama-mama (yes, i finished watching Devil Beside You in 1.5 days!!!) and playing games on my new toy. I must say time flies when u play games... haha..

since my fb girls have been going on about the 'devil beside you' show for some time and debating whether mike he or kingone is cuter.....
My verdict: I LIKE MIKE HE!!!!!! Omgggg, he's sooooooooooo HOT =P
that's why they say girls like bad boys... i totally agree.. Kingone looks quite blur and innocent and i dun like his bushy eyebrows. haha. I didn't know Yang Ping is JAP!! and i think that Meidi is soooooooo NOT sweet at all!! =) But yeah, i think i do have a thing for basketballers too.. hahaha, coz they're tallllllllllllllll..

ok, shall stop acting like a bimbo and fawn over them.. Other than my entertainments, nothing really exciting over the weekend. OH actually one of my kids made my day one nite coz he was askin me over MSN if i would like to continue teaching them when i return. My heart SWELLED.. coz i miss them soooooooooooo much =( and given the current situation about my work, made me wonder whether it was all worth it.. to give them up for my job. Well, anyways, i'd DIE to teach them again, such lovely kids...

To be honest, i felt insecure when i gave them up coz at that pt in time, of coz they said they'll miss me and that when i return, see if i wanna teach them again. But i spelt out clearly to the parents that it's not fair for the child's progress to keep changin and all.. I had to hunt around for teachers for them and part of me actually hoped that they do not like their new teacher =P it was also a test for myself to see how i measure up to other teachers outside. As such, their STILL wanting me to continue teachin them really boosts my morale. *Touched*..

Spent a great deal of time day-dreaming as well. Lookin at pictures on facebook... I concluded that its only been such a short time! Yet i'm thinking way too far sometimes.. but it sure feels like a LONG LONG time already. As if it's been years... i was told @ the bus terminal, "it feels like 6 months has passed and its time for you to come home".. i really did wish for that. But hearing that means a lot to me tho it didn't make it easier for myself.
Perhaps i'm emo, perhaps i think too much, perhaps i'm too free.. but bottomline is i ought to focus on the PRESENT and not think too much about the future coz its impt to be on the same page. Else one party will be disappointed?? Something's wrong with me.. i feel so comfy around them that it's scaring me. Too fast, too soon..

On a side note, my friends have been such lovely darlings encouragin me and keepin me company. Esp my sec sch mates, beloved teammates and ex-colleagues (when they're free =P)
I'm thankful for that. I wanna be stronger, to be infallible to all those yearnings, like a guy.
As of today, i'd have been here for exactly 3 months! Those reading this will be thinkin "wow, so fast!" Trust me, not fast at all.. i'm plannin my leave such that i'll be outta here in 2.5 months........

Give me Strength!!

Treasure life...

2008-10-23T14:55:00.002+08:00

Was just chatting with an ex-colleague, who told me his cousin just passed away at a young age of 35+... Really sad coz she's still young and has 2 girls, 3 and 5 years old left behind..
Life's unfair, isn't it?
Made me think back of dear Sam... How are you? I hope life's treating you good up there! Hope your boys are doing great too.. I miss you.............
When you're down n out, think of those who do not have a chance to 'feel' happy. Smile and things will get better. At least you still have a chance to live life the way you want to. =)

For me, life's just getting started it seems... and i'm enjoying every bit. So all i want is to be happy! =) CHEERIOSSssssss...

Ben n Mal's Wedding @ St Regis!

2008-10-22T19:32:00.009+08:00

Proudly presents.... 23rd SCMC!! =) Fusion Dessert...

Yiwen n I!! (Gawd, i miss her)... Plus her bump.. =)

23rd SCMC again..

Hon "Trashes" =P

John Jacob's Ballroom

Cold Dish..

Lala n I..

My New Toy! =)

2008-10-22T19:26:00.003+08:00

NINTENDO DS LITE!! =)

Thanks sooooooooo much!! =D

Contradicting..

2008-10-21T12:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i want time to fly faster, like now.
Sometimes, i want time to slow to a halt, like yesterday.
No wonder they say women are hard to please.. but seems like this applies to guys too.. =P

My weekend passed by way toooo quickly.. sob sob =(
the wedding was very interesting.. will upload some pics when i get back...
I enjoyed the next day n the day after too... so many things to do, to go, to see.. so little time...
Can never be satisfied i guess and its never enough?

Finally met the granny and managed to spend a little bit more time just staring at wuffy.
Such a cute darling with such beautiful big and innocent eyes!
I'm touched that you sacrificed your precious sleep to keep me company!!

I'm zombified now, havin slept only about 2 hours? Need to catch up on my sleep tonight... =)

If only: I can quit my job n go back to Singapore right now!

Thanks for the NDSL!! =)

Helpless...

2008-10-17T08:46:00.003+08:00

I dont like it when i feel helpless... That's just how i am.
When my friends are down, i try to go all out to make them feel better. Be it old, young, boy or girl.. Maybe thats y sometimes people get the wrong impression?
But i just do what i do best, be myself! haha, crack jokes, act silly...
Esp for my loved ones, i really hope that my mere presence or antics take their mind of stressful or traumatizing experiences...
You know how sometimes when you're so down, you see a loved one and your spirit lifts up immediately and ur lips curve up instead of down?
I wish i have that special power... haha
I can only wish and hope that you get over it and not be bogged down by it...
That's all i can do..

All I ask for...

2008-10-16T11:47:00.004+08:00

I still have nothing much to do at work, yet i am not blogging like when i just came... why? Simply coz life here is really boring and mundane.. Nothing interestin in office, only things for me to bitch about. And what i have for my meals... THAT's ALL! My only entertainment is MSN.. and Occasional work i need to do.. Is this really what i want?
I really would like to go for a holiday end of this year, but i guess my schedule does not permit. Even if i want a weekend getaway, other people may not be free =(
End of last year i went on a road trip to Europe... I miss it!
At least i have been to Bangkok with my gal pals and Macau with my folks. Else it would have been a very miserable 2008..

All this wedding.. or rather Proposal stuff is getting to me and i cant help but go google and check these stuff out. Living my daydream, yes i know.. i cant help it! Have got a soft spot for such sweet occasions! Haha, at least i know they have just PROMISED to spend their life together, but not at the "dotted line" stage. It really scares me at the thought of my good friends all getting married. I fear that after that, life changes and there will be no space in their life for me anymore. Well, at least maybe until they have kids and have all grown up?
I dont wanna be left alone and i think i love my friends too much for them to be snatched by a 'guy' as well.. Women are selfish, arent they?

Just dont 4get to live out our childhood fantasy of having high tea together after we all get married! =)

Is to have you come back safe and sound...

Pictures!!

2008-10-13T19:30:00.010+08:00

View from the Sampan....

The famous Stuffed Crab!

MyBelgium Chocolate Haagen Daaz........ Slurp slurp =)

Absolutely enjoying my dinner @ Mexica...

Poolside Bar!

HyattRegency Swimming Pool...

Oops, my Fish is sooooo YUMMY!! =)

The Highlight for dinner: LOBSTER!!!

Compliments from Hyatt: Chocolates Delight! =)

Withdrawal Symptoms

2008-10-13T13:36:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, the weekend just zipped past unknowingly! Goodness... i'm sooooooooo missing it already =( Since yesterday.. Wish it could have lasted till last night at least... But its alright, we didnt know whether there was gonna be any changes or not... At least we had SOME time...

Hyatt was beautiful and comfy!!! I'll put up some pictures when i'm home.. =P and dinner @ Mexica was extravagant... first time i felt HAPPY eating in ulu Kuantan..
It just all ended too quickly..
i'm starting to countdown already...

Thank you!!! =)

TGIF

2008-10-10T08:49:00.002+08:00

It's Frrrrrrriiiiiiidddddddaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy =P
Hooray!!!
hahhahaha =)

I'm sad when my friends are sad/down.... wish i can be there to cheer her up...
Jia you! i'm sure you can pull through this..

On a side note, i'm so proud of myself.. i can actually STILL DRIVE a manual car.. mwahahahaha
well, my engine died like twice last night though... but still quite a mean feat for myself.. since its been 4 years since i last had to touch a GEAR.. haha, now my hands n legs are kept busy all the time..... Stress..

Wedding bells are ringing

2008-10-09T11:52:00.002+08:00

OK, i 4got to mention the SHOCKIN NEWS i heard on my last day in SIN...
my sec school GAL PAL is gettin married!!! Her bf proposed to her durin her biz trip...
Quite a romantic and 'surprise' proposal compared to those i've heard....
so happy for her!!! =)

Suddenly, application of HDB flats seem to be the talk of the town... but its like way way down in my priority list. Time's not right and i guess we wont be eligible anyways..
I was just thinkin, the day that anyone of my closest buddies get married, esp my woman, i'll cry... haha silly me...

Yaaaaaaaaay!!!

2008-10-09T10:19:00.003+08:00

Wow, i really took a long break from blogging coz of my trip back home.. i felt so gd back at home that i didn't feel like comin back Msia... I cant wait for the weekend to come!!! =)

Accomplished and did so many things during my trip back, made it all the more worthwhile... hahaa, almost everyday was filled with activity, so much so that i fell sick when i flew back to Msia and had to see doctor on Monday coz i was so damn sick.. Lost my voice totally, sore throat, fever, flu, cough.. you name it. I slept a lot and am finally feelin better now... i had incentive to get better b4 the weekend comes anyways.. haha =P

One fact stands, that the weight i put on here is APPARENT... so no more gorgin on zhi char... else i'm gonna be the laughing stock.. haiii...

The first thing that i did when i got home was to go for FB training.. haha, it was a friendly @ TP and i almost died... and the training after that, i think the PT 3.2km run under the hot sun killed me and made me really sick... but oh well, wth..haha... met up with some of the seniors after that @ HV for zhi char and chilled out @ Coffee Club.. it was great! we have never ending things to talk about.. Always very interesting.. but it was indeed FULL of updates..haha =)

Met up with Steph 3 times in a short span of 1 week.. goodness..haha, hope she's not sick of me.. =P Also met up with the 5M, Doreen, CC, Siwei, HP folks (n of coz drinks @ Villa Bali, courtesy of V n H)...

Last but not the least, i got to meet him.. it was tough, after so long... n i couldn't sit still @ all, waitin to see him.. after all, i had already been home for 5 days by then and haven seen him.......... Well, things were planned such that it was a stresssful day for us... but it all turned out really well, doncha think? =)
The first thing that caught my eyes were how bright his eyes gleamed with mischief when i saw him... i almost 4got that shine.. and was mesmerized... we only had 3 days. =(
Life's tough huh? i hate the scheduler.. arghhhhh....

sigh... oh! and for the first time, the 5M (minus 2) met up with one another's partners... i'm soooooo glad it wasn't awkward at all... such great fun! heeee

SO much so for my holidays.. back to reality... =

2008-10-03T16:37:00.007+08:00

TCCSiweiMy Woman!!
Happy Birthday Mum!! =)

Kor KorDad n Mum (one of the nicest pics of them haha =P)(Almost) Full House

Withdrawal Symptoms...

2008-10-03T16:31:00.003+08:00

Time's flyin by way way toooooo fast.. =(
It's almost been a week...
Last minute changes, there goes my Fri (half the day), Sat and Sun...
Sigh, it ain't easy at all...
Gotta live with it...

I left my heart in HP

2008-09-26T11:33:00.003+08:00

I think i really really built some really really strong bonds back in HP.....
Just had a phone call with one of my 'lub lubs' and my heart was racing just talkin to her... i feel so excited just tellin her i'll be back to visit next wk and funny how i know more about some of what the guys are doin than her... =P

Omg, i cant wait!!!! Why am i soooooooooo emotionally attached to HP?
it's like i feel more like i've been there 10 years than just a mere 2 years... the people, my friends, sigh... just thinkin about them puts a smile on my face... with a slight tinge of sadness at times.... when i think of the closer uncles from my dept.... haiii, guess i really missed them..... LOADS.. *sob sob*

I've got programmes lined up all of next week and i'm soooooooo excited!
Esp the gathering @ my place... its gonna be soooooooo fun! hahaha, gaawddddd i cant wait!! =)

Happy!

2008-09-25T10:01:00.002+08:00

Yaayyyyy, i'm comin home!!!

And i just received news that my friend is finally moving on to what she's wanted all along... studying Masters for ermmmm language n speech therapy.... so she's gonna be a speech therapist next time for children with special needs!!! how noble!! =)

Sigh, out of the 5 of us, seems like i'm the lost sheep now... one's with govt coz of her scholarship bond, but with super promising prospects. One's an auditor who's doing really well... Another's doing sales now with citi... after a few years there, she'll get a gd portfolio n move on in the financial sector... n we have a speeech therapist.... AND lastly, an engineer... hahaahaaaa, how interesting..

i think i'm being very kiasu, bookin everyone way ahead for meet ups... haha, suddenly i'm meetin up with my friends more than when i'm in Singapore i think =P

Fated to Love You......

2008-09-24T16:09:00.001+08:00

Andy Rooney

2008-09-23T09:33:00.002+08:00

And so..... He learned that

"Love, not time, heals all wounds..."

"Love, not time, breaks all barriers.."

I've always thought that time is the best medicine to heal all wounds.

With time, you get over with emotions and memories fade away.

So why is it that love heals wounds?

I thought about it and i finally saw some light to it..

Same goes for barriers n obstacles.. now this is more tricky...

How on earth can love break down barriers??!?!

See how your love for your job motivates you and move on?

See how your love for your sport inspires u to improve and overcome barriers?

I guess this is what it means...

Seems like love does wonders, isn't it?

But sometimes, i wonder...

Is love great enough to break MENTAL barriers?

To change a person's mindset?

I'm BLESSED...

2008-09-22T10:18:00.003+08:00

Wow, This morning when i opened my email and saw it flooding with orders for my fund-raising, i was seriously overwhelmed... n i swear i teared.
I wasn't expecting them to actually bother. Most of them my ex-colleagues..
I guess if i were them, i can just easily delete the email and ignore it...
But... well, i guess i have made some really really really good friends there.

So.... when i was told i had many 'luv luv' there, its true after all....
I'm deeply touched and i dont know what to say.
*bows*

Thanks everyone!!!

Counting down... 7

2008-09-18T13:05:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was such a wonderful day! =)
I got a parcel, got free dinner and drinks...
Made appointment to cut my hair this weekend..
Managed to contact this other dept about my missing parcels, a SPARK of hope still there, i'm supposed to get a call from them today but no news yet.. =(
*keepin my fingers crossed*
Meanwhile, i seem to be attracting wrong kind of attention. It's funny, really... Like when you're lookin for 'em and none looks in your way... and when you're not lookin, they just come flockin to you.... WEIRD...

Happy & Sad...

2008-09-18T13:05:00.002+08:00

I'm sooo happy today coz i received a parcel.... FINALLY..........
Yet sad at the same time means that my total lost Tally stands and the items are not gonna be recovered i guess.. coz it took 1 week for the item to reach me.. so if the lost parcels were returned to SIN, it should take at most 2-3 weeks.. but its been more than a month... =(
sob sob sob big time..... I want my Jap doll And CD!!!! and MUGGGGGGGG!!! =~~~~~(

Nevertheless, thanks a lot, Shah!

Losses

2008-09-17T09:55:00.001+08:00

Total lost count:
- 2 cards
- 1 Jap doll
- 1 CD
- 1 mug

Sob sob sob.... those are my lost items tally for now and that i'm aware of.. i hope n hope n hope that they go back to the original owners, so that i can STILL get them... =( i think it hurts knowin you lost somethin from your loved ones than not gettin anythin at all...